Anonymous said: If you're a mom/ student/ all grown up, why are you living with your mom? If it sucks so much, just move out. And why isn't your boyfriend doing anything? Seems like a one-sided relationship.
Well, I’m what some may call an irresponsible grown up. My boyfriend and I didn’t exactly intend to have a baby at this time. We were both employed before we knew I was pregnant. My pregnancy hormones got the best of me and I quit my job. After I quit my job, I found out I was pregnant and after THAT, my boyfriend lost his job. He got fired for some boggus complaint. We worked at the same place.. I think he got fired because of me and the complaint was just an excuse.. Anyways, that’s when I decided to go to school. Moved back in with my parents because it’s what I had to do.
My boyfriend got a job, but it doesn’t pay enough for us to move out and my mom is doing what she can to keep ME from getting a job. I had a job lined up that I could bring my son with me to and I had to decline because my mom put a bunch of her responsibilities on me. I felt obligated to accept those responsibilities because I live at her house rent-free. However, it’d greatly effected my school work. I’ve had to ask for an extension on one of my courses so that I can complete it. I’ve managed to get good grades still.
My boyfriend does what he can. He needs a lot of direction and I’m already too overwhelmed to give him too much of that, but he really listens and tries his best, so I don’t give him too much of a hard time. He’s a very loving father and boyfriend. I really appreciate having him around. He cares very much for me and our little family. We’re both doing what we can to move out and have some independance, but it’s just not always that easy. It’s “easier said than done” as they say. ;0)
bryandrums-deactivated20130223 said: Apparently an anon is telling you I answered your post, and I did, I just responded to it with the missing e thing to where it acts like your post was a comment, does that make sense? Anyway, the post is on page 5 of my blog.
Hm.. Well, maybe you feel that you are evil as your truest self, but I am not. I genuinely care about the well being of others and would sacrifice my entire life to save someone else’s. I love people as much as I love myself and wish so badly that I could do everything that is necessary to ensure that everyone had a place to live and eat and join in fellowship.. Even more so than that, I would love to give everyone the trust and understanding necessary for them to become themselves in the truest sense.. And I do what I can.
So, again, you may feel that you are evil as your truest self, but I am not.
I can person vouch for this! I was raised with strict rules and harsh discipline and it took me a VERY long time to even begin to love myself or think I was worth anything. High school was the most difficult period of my life due to my lack of self esteem.
Anonymous said: bryandrums answered your thing saying that we are god.
I’m not seeing the answer??
Yyyyeah… I’m glad we’re cultivating a culture that emphasizes intimacy and a personal relationship with God. But when you use the metaphor so much that it CEASES TO BE A METAPHOR, then it’s like… “You know He’s not going to pay for dinner, right?”
Interesting.. Well, the way I look at it.. We are God. Now, hear me out..
The Bible says he “lives in us.” This could be interpreted in MANY different ways.. The way I like to interpret it.. the way that makes the most sense to me.. is that our true selves are God.
So, we must have an “intimate relationship” with ourselves to discover who we are and.. well.. in the context I like to think of it in, to discover God.
Wendell Berry (via kcherry)
True that.. We all need to actually follow this, though.. Why is that so difficult?! I have a very hard time “getting in the government’s way.” I feel too small to do it.. And, despite my efforts, I have a hard time getting a big group together to do it.